i realized..

this entry was inspired by maria elena's entry entitled : tentang hijab..

true story, yup it happens..ece, mcm suspen gile kan..haha..ok serious..this entry is a story about things i should not do..well early this year, (rasenye la) i was amazed by so many beautiful hijabers..like yuna, hana tajima, aishah amin, shea, maria elena and so many to be list..they are all gorgeous in their own way..agree? YES..(adore mereka)

i want to be like them, to dress like them, and to look pretty like them..i love fashion and i always do..i dream to be a model..yes i do..but since that, i became so obsess about fashion and modelling..like what kak maria had said in her blog, mcm2 hijab contest ade dlm facebook..too many..semua org cantik2 yg join..

and i don't know how, i fall into one of it..it was a model search contest..i went for the photoshoot..and surprisingly i lied to my mum saying i'm meeting some friends..ouh, damn stupid gile..

i thought it was going to be a very short and simple get to know and fitting session, and yet it turn to be some sorts of betul2 punye photoshoot..siap kene make up and ade professional photographer..itula terlampau ikutkn hati,huhu..katenye dah nak habis..tp bile pkl 7 pun xhbs lg..mule la resah..yup mmg resah..YA ALLAH, what have i done..i cried there..dpn semua org yg ade..dah xkire dah malu ke ape..but i just cried..tp i xsalah kn mereka 100%..it was totally my fault..lemah nya iman aku..astagfirullah hal azim..when i got home, mama dah risau sgt2..not only mama, semua org pun risau..huhu..that was my biggest mistake..

i pray to GOD to forgive me..since then i realized, i never going to let myself go astray..far away from GOD..
insya Allah..

p/s:
nak berfashion and modelling, xsalah.. asalkan berpada-pada.. igt tanggungjwab kt sbg muslimah sebenar..
(note to myself)

lepas nih, nk jd model, gune camera sendiri je sudah.. 
kan anas kan?? hehehe..

*forever alone*

ketumbit dtg lagi..huhu

huaarrgghhhh!!!..dah lame kot xde ketumbit..tp baru2 ni, secara ttbe dpt ketumbit..sedih..huhuhu..until today, its been 3 days ketumbit ni ade..haisshhh bile nak hilang ni???skt da kurang la tp..huhu..so, i did some research about 'ketumbit'..here is what i found..mari kwn2 kt menimba ilmu!!!haha

Ketumbit merupakan jangkitan pada pinggir kelopak mata yang mengakibatkan bisul kecil yang berkembang pada bahagian tersebut. Ketumbit boleh dibahagikan kepada ketumbit luaran, iaitu apabila jangkitan berlaku pada folikel-folikel yang terdapat pada bulu mata, atau ketumbit dalaman, iaitu apabila jangkitan berlaku pada kelenjar minyak yang terdapat pada kelopak mata.

Ketumbit adalah disebabkan oleh kelenjar minyak yang terletak berhampiran dengan kelopak mata menjadi tersumbat. Kelenjar minyak yang telah tersumbat ini kebiasaannya akan dijangkiti oleh bakteria seperti bakteria Staphylococcus aureus.

Faktor-faktor :

* Tekanan
* Pertukaran hormon
* Mengguna peralatan solek yang sama buat satu jangka masa yang lama atau yang telah dijangkiti oleh bacteria
* Diabetis
* Kandungan lemak yang tinggi dalam badan
* Kekurangan vitamin dalam badan 

Simptom-simptom

* Bisul di bahagian atas atau bawah kelopak mata
* Bengkak di sekeliling kelopak mata
* Sakit
* Kelopak mata menjadi merah
* Kelopak mata terasa sakit apabila disentuh
* Mata menjadi pedih
* Mata berair
* Gatal-gatal di kawasan bisul
* Pesakit berasa tidak selesa semasa mengelipkan mata
* Sensitif kepada cahaya yang cerah 

Petua hilangkan ketumbit..(tp xcuba lg la..lps ni bru nk cuba)

ambil BAWANG PUTIH seulas… hancurkan… dan letakkan airnya kat Ketumbit tu… biarkan sahaja, jangan bilas… kuantiti.. bergantung pada besarnya ketumbit tu ya…

buat sehari je…
pagi,. tengahari dan malam sebelum tidur…insya Allah..

WARNING!!!

ok, dah ternyata la ketumbit ni takde kene- mengena dgn mengintai org tgh mndi ke ape ke k..jgn nk memandai2..hehehehe..

..they are special...

hye peeps..

yesterday, one of my friend posted a video on FB..it really touched and inspired me..yes, definitely it does..and it made me think, 'why we always complaining about how complicated and why difficult our life is'..sedangkan dlm dunia ni ramai lg org ssh dr kt..

this is a story about Taeho..he is a Korean boy living with no arms..his determination in life really encourage me..i cried while watching this..and his story also gives me an idea to write about very special peoples in my life..i always wanted to write about them long ago..but i just don't know how i should start the story with..

"ade berapa org adik beradik?"..maybe for some people, it was an easy question..bdk kecik pon boleh jwb..but for me, it isn't..i almost cried every single time the question pops out..why??because when i was asked, i'm confused..what number should i said?do i need to tell them the true story?why me?....

 I have 5 siblings..sy ade kakak, 2 adik lelaki and satu adik perempuan..plus 1 abg saudara; which i always thought like my own elder brother.. sadly, my elder sis, one of my younger brother and my 'elder' brother had passed away..yes, Allah swt loves them more..both of my own siblings were diagnosed to have a disease called Epidermolysis Bullosa..it is a skin disease..doctors told my mama that both of them are not going to have long life..but Allah swt is the Greatest..both my sis and brother lives until they were 15 (quite a long time for me)..on another story, my beloved cousin was diagnosed with brain tumor when he was 24 years old..he passed away just a few month after my brother died..i miss them a lot..there are so many things i wanted to share with them like we used to do before..most people thinks i had moved on and some might think i had forget about them..but deep in my heart, only Allah swt knows.. semoga mereka ditempatkan di tempat org yg beriman dan rohnya dicucuri rahmat..aminn..

Al-Fatihah..

alhamdulillah..praise to Allah :D

Alhamdulillah..exams finished and results pn dah dpt..(even not officially, tp dgr khabarnya semua org lulus, insya Allah)..thank you Allah...alhamdulillah, semua satu class (2nd batch) semua nya pass...yay!!!!!!!semua dah boleh naik year 5!!ape??year 5????final year weyh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!seronok2!!haha..to those yg dpt viva distinction, congratulations!!korg mmg terbaik!!!:D

Thanks to all my lecturers for OMFS and CD..segala tunjuk ajarmu, jasamu, kesabaranmu mendidik sy dan rakan-rakan akan kami hargai buat selama-lamanya..

Sempena hari guru ni juga, ece..jutaan terima kasih diucapkan terutama sekali kepada both my parents, sbb mendidik, sentiasa bersabar dan sanggup berhabis a lot utk pastikan anak-anak semuanya dpt belajar ilmu Allah yg luas ini..to all my teachers from kindergarten, primary school, secondary school, matriculation and university, thank you so much..kamsahamnida!!!..:D 

mari support ramai-ramai!!:D

salam, 

actually this entry should be posted few days back..tp asyik terlupa je..ish,pelupa btol..huhu..i was tagged by my friend named maryam to show some support for a campaign..campaign ape ye??

tadaaa!!!

honestly, me myself pon xla bagus sgt dlm hal ni...but i'm trying to be better..insya Allah..

*wink*

kakak??

hurm?best ke jd kakak?sy bukan anak sulung tp since my elder sis passed away, i took the responsibilty..from just calling me by the name, they started to call me 'kakak'..mule-mule mmg agak pelik..hahaha..kakak?never thought of anybody to call me that..

it was very difficult for me to adapt at first..anak sulung..that was the first thing org akan tanya bila keluarga bertemu keluarga..anak sulung die buat ape sekarang?anak sulung die dah kawen ke?(ha?kawen?heehee..eh,tergedik pulak)..haishh..semuanya anak sulung..ouh, how i wish to be the youngest in the family..(best xjadi fatin?haha)..tapi..setelah sekian lame jd kakak..mmg best..hehee..

1.jd kakak mmg best..sebab selalu dpt baju baru..haha..mase kecik-kecik dulu, bile baju lame dah xmuat, mama belikan baju baru..since baju tu elok lagi, so adik2 la yang dpt baju tu..korg pakai bju recycle ok!!!!!!..hehehe..

2.being the elder sister, sy ade kuasa veto..adik-adik mesti percaya ckp kakak..percayalahh!!hehe..i still remember once i told my younger sister that she was adopted..biasalah,tgh gaduh kn..geram punye pasal..hehehe..and another story..dah besar la time tu..tp kakak tetap kakak..my younger sister fatin mule2 nak msk sekolah menengah..nervous kot die tu nak msk new school..''kakak, orientasi kat sekolah menengah tu mcm mane?''..hehee..kakak pon jwb "hurm,lain dr mse sekolah rendah..penat sgt..xboleh rest..pagi-pagi da kene bangun pergi daftar..pastu kene dgr ceramah dlm dewan..bile ptg pulak kene ikut aktiviti riadah.."

tetiba malam before fatin new school's orietation..mama tanya "fatin nak pergi mane tu?siap pack2 beg nih?''

fatin pon jwb ''nak pergi orientasi la..kakak ckp lame nanti, byk aktiviti...''..mama pon ape lagi, ''mai!!!!!!!!!!!!!''...hehe..sory dear fatin, akak terlupa nk ckp akak main2 je..hehehe

3.but sometimes, being elder sister mmg stress..kerja rumah semua kakak la yang kne tlg..dulu before bibik not exist, kakak la mama's best assistant..adik nangis, kakak tgk..adik poop, urghhhh kakak tlg basuh..haishh..tp bile igt blk, kalau xjd kakak takdela experience buat semua2 ni kn..hehe

*wink*

smile!

Are u a smiler???well, i'm not saying that i'm one, but i do like to smile *wink*

i spend hours standing in front of the mirror trying to figure out the best smile i have..haha..and everytime before i go out from my room, i'll smile in front of the mirror..again..bad habit?naaah, don't think so..

there's no harm smiling, aite?

a smile costs nothing but gives much..x pecaye?try senyum sket..hahaha..ade difference kn?kn?kn?

but sometimes, it makes me wonder..kenapalah ade jugak org yg kedekut sgt nk senyum..and yg lg pelik...bile kt senyum, dibalas pulak dgn jelingan..ouh,sungguh menusuk kalbu!rase mcm tgh jln2 dgn hati yg girang pastu terlanggar tiang..toing!!hehe..its not like i'm not sincere when i smile but i just wonder..hehe..:D

emm,have u ever noticed, that when u say the word SMILE, u were actually smiling???awesome!!hehe..

here, some smile fact:

"you're never fully dressed without a smile" - Martin Charnin

"start every day off with a smile and get it over" - W.C Fields 

thus, don't forget to smile!!!:)

*wink*

imperfection is beauty

Freedom..

hmm..freedom..kebebasan..ape yg kt tau sebenarnye??..hurm..freedom means being free, have the ability or power to act, speak, or think without externally imposed restraints. but that doesn't mean you can do anything including against the law and your religion..

i always asked myself  'kenapa mama selalu xbagi keluar dgn kwn2, bebas pegi mane2 mcm org lain..kenapa mama kne tanya ape yg mai tgh buat, dgn siapa mai keluar, mai nk pergi mane, kenapa mama nk kenal semua kwn2 mai..kenapa mama marah sgt bile dpt tau mai keluar xbgtau?kenapa?kenapa?'..mmg kalau org lain tgk, my life mcm bosan je..mcm kne control 24/7..tp sebenarnya x..i am very lucky to have a mom like mama..that shows how deep my mom's love towards me..cume kt je yg selalu sgt nk salah anggap dgn ape yg mak kt cube lakukan..selalu sgt nk memberontak

i remember once i got my 'kunci kebebasan' necklace..i was so happy..i've been waiting for it for so long..haha..but then i starts to think..kenapa umur 21 br dpt??ha,kenapakah??pk punye pk punye pk..sampai ttdo..harini br dpt..kire hari ni dlm sejarah la..haha..sbb ape umur 21 br pt..sbb kalau mama bg lebih awl, mungkin i might use it in a wrong way..yela, kn tgh memberontak..otak dkt lutut..haha..nw bile da 21..otak baru btol2 kat kepala..br boleh berfikir dgn waras..necklace tu bkn tandanya kt bebas utk buat ape shj ikut nafsu, tp necklace tuh sebenarnye ialah sign of freedom for me think more wisely in leading my future life..sign of freedom for me to have the courage to speak up my mind..sign of freedom for me to think what's the best for me..once i got the key of freedom, i'm the one who lead the way my life should be..mama will only be the advisor..wow!!sungguh dlm maknenye..hehehe..thanks Allah for making me realized how lucky i am..thanks mama for all the love u give to me..*wink*

da puas kami lompat..release tension..hihi~

alhamdulillah~

alhamdulillah..dpt bertemu dgn Ramadhan lg..Ramadhan kali ni, rse cm excited sgt..bkn nk kate Ramadhan yg lepas2 tu x excited, tp this Ramadhan rse lg excited pulak..hope my Ramadhan this time will be much better than before..insya Allah..

this is just a piece of my mind..renung2 kan lah...

ALHAMDULILLAH..thank you Allah, terima kasih Allah..there are so many ways to recite our grateful n thankful to Allah..bkn nye susah pon nk ucap rase syukur ni..tp kt sering leka dan terus terlupa..bila Allah da kurniakn rezeki kpd kt, msti ade je yg x cukup..bila da diberi kesusahan brula sedar yg selama ni kt terlalu jarang bersyukur..astaghfirullahalazim..manusia mmg cepat lupa..terlalu cepat selesa dgn kemewahan yg ada..

one day, i followed my mum to one of her islamic class..rase terharu n sebak sgt bile uztaz tu bercerita ttg kealpaan manusia..i still remember his phrase "kt sebagai manusia yakni makhluk yg terbaik yg Allah cipta, telah diberi akal utk berfikir, tp tdk pernah bersyukur..malah seringkali merungut..ade sj yg tidak mencukupi..selalu dengki antara satu sama lain..tidak malu kah kt dgn makhluk2 lain ciptaan Nya..sdgkn burung,binatang2 lain dan pokok pon selalu bersyukur dan memuji2 Allah..tetapi kt??...utk mengucapkan alhamdulillah pon satu perkara yg berat bg kt.."

Ya Allah..sesungguhNya hamba Mu ini seringkali leka dgn kemewahan dan keseronokan duniawi..ampunkan lah hamba Mu ini, Ya Allah..aku bersyukur dgn segala rahmat dan nikmat yg engkau kurniakan..redhailah perjalanan hidup ku ini..berkatilah segala ilmu yg aku pelajari dan masuk kan lah aku ke dalam Syurga Mu.. Amin..

this is one of my favourite song by Maher Zain

kecewa~

kecewa, frustrated.. what else should i say about espanyol team last wednesday...huhu..sedih..player semuanye da bagos..but truthfully the match was boring..huhu..they control most of the game but never scored..ouhh..what happen to my dear torres..wish them a better luck on the next game..(full of hopes)

btw..argentina played soooo well against korea yesterday!!go argentina..haha..

Demand for justice

It was a huge shocking news when Israel did the unexpected attack towards one of the Gaza aid-carrying ship, Mavi Marmara the last 3 days..i was in the middle of something when suddenly my mom called to watch the news on astro awani..the night before we heard the news, my mom just got a text asking all muslims to pray for the six ships that are on their way to send the aid to Gaza...it was a very brave and greatest act of them..may GOD bless them and their family..

I was mad at the israeli for their immature act and was very sad thinking of  the fate of my Palestenian brothers and sisters and those  who tried to help the less fortunate but was killed without reason..

I was a bit relieved hearing today's new when the volunteers had been released..Alhamdulillah~

Oh Allah, please give us courage and strength to face all this and all those bad people..

we demand for justice!!ALLAHUAKBAR!!!